I was craving a cup of coffee along the way so i made the first turn pointing me in the direction of a bakery. They didn’t have coffee but they had a community garden right behind me with a reminder to phone home. (I really should, sigh.)
Another piece of me died the other day. I realized that many of the “spiritual” things I have chosen to believe existed have never really been proven. Not by science, but more importantly, not even by myself. Psychic abilities, spirit guides, reincarnation, extraterrestrial communication, soul contracts, multi-dimensional realities, etc, etc – I spent my entire life believing in these things and defending them to others without ever really having any of my own proof or personal experience.
Ever since I was a kid this world was never enough for me. Always needing more, always searching for more. And now, TROLOLOL, the joke was on me because apparently my real life mission was to accept that this is all there is and to find the beauty and magic in it. It took me half my life to discover my real mission, and I suppose the rest of my life to implement it. Who knows, maybe once I surrender to what already is and find my peace with it, the other things I’ve been searching for will just open themselves naturally to me. Or maybe it wont even matter anymore whether or not they are true.
“I’m convinced that I come from a place where there is no concept of ‘earning a living’. All beings just exist and ‘be’ in peace. Earth is the only planet where we have to ‘pay’ to survive. I have a hard time fitting in.
People say ‘do what you like’, I like to just be and not do.” – Neha Sinha